I think the awful fug I was in over the last few days has certainly started to lift now.
Had a really good heart to heart with Phil on Saturday and had a good old cry which really did the trick. I feel much lighter, much more positive and more hopeful about the future now. I know I seemed to be holding it together and reassuring people I was OK, but quite frankly it was very much "putting a brave face on it" - even though I didn't know it at the time. I genuinely thought I was OK, so it's not as if I was lying to people or hiding my feelings from them, but it all came to a head on Saturday, came flooding out and that felt like the turning point.
So on Sunday, we both woke up early (8am) had breakfast and Buffy in bed (the ONLY way to start a Sunday in my opinion) and then went for a really lovely wander around town. I'd decided to get some new work clothes, the thought process being that with a new start there should be nice new clothes to make myself feel good in an interview; with this in mind we headed into Primark and I managed to spend a very restrained 42 quid on a nice gray woollen dress, a purple and black tartan skirt, a black shirt, 6 pairs of tights, a green roll-neck jumper and a teal long-sleeved top. Phil also bought be a stunning dark gray and black checked knee-length pencil skirt with a slight flare to the bottom, very corporate goth :) Some totally amazing things in that shop at the moment - the leopard-print faux-fur jacket is AWESOME, but a frivolous 25 quid that I can't afford at the moment.
Anyway. After much needed retail therapy, we dropped the stuff back at Phil's flat and then went for food at the Bombay Aloo all you can eat veggie restaurant we discovered back when we had our Brighton holiday. NOM NOM NOM! It was just a pleasant and chilled out day, both feeling really loved up and happy. We finished the weekend with some red wine and the Lord of The Rings - Fellowship and lots of snuggles. Bliss.
Now I am feeling really positive, and am off out and about in a short while to get things going on the job front, and hunt down some things in charity shops for my Hallowe'en costume :) It's still a big secret, but all will be revealed in good time! Oh, and peeking on Facebook, I saw that my ex is still going thin on top, and his new american lady is significantly less hot than me ;) I know, it's evil, but it's the little things like that which make you grin on the inside ;)
It's going to be a good week, I can feel it!
2 comments:
Having looked at my ex too on Facebook, I'm delighted to say that he's really ugly now. Like, really ugly. There's nothing better than finding that out.
maybe your ex is glad that his new american lady is significantly less obese then you?
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