*GRUMP*

Today, most likely due to hormones, everything but everything is getting me down.

Money – I need to make a very long and uncomfortable call to the bank at lunchtime to try and sort out the a/cs with them which I don’t need anymore, which have overdrafts and charges left on them. I aim to close the majority as I now bank with Smile.co.uk but will have to keep one open with which to make the loan repayments, because an emergency consolidation loan with the bank looks like my only option right now.

Work – not because I don’t like the job, but because it’s taking SO much out of me. Who knew that an office job could be so demanding? *wry grin* to be fair, compare it to the stressful days at the bank and it’s nothing really; during the crisis of Bank charges we were taking 40-50 calls a day and taking a huge amount of abuse, the majority of which became personal pretty quick. It wore us down. No, it’s not that my new job is more stressful emotionally, but because it requires so much more concentration. I’ve only been here for 8 weeks and Ive still got so much to learn. My brain feels so tired some days, its untrue. Yes, my level of French has dramatically improved but I still find myself struggling for the words when it counts, which is usually in a social context. Blah. Feel a bit mute and introverted.

Rent – too much really but such a lovely flat and don’t really want to move – plus the cost and hassle would be awful.

Health – everything feels WRONG. Slow, and just wrong. I’m going to the docs this week hopefully to see if there’s anything they can help me with.

And as a consequence, everything else, no matter how small it is, is making me feel worse.

*GRUMP*